Lately I have been feeling like someone is out to get me at work. Today I had an epiphany though! I'm being paranoid- I just can't figure out why. Work has been hounding me about a lot of stupid things and now the chief of police has reopened an IA investiagation that was supposed to be an "unfounded accusastion" according the the investigator. However the chief apparentyl feels different. I am just so sick of looking over my should at work b/c everyone is such a backstabber. I became a cop to help people, not get shit on by the community and my co-workers and boss! HELLO!!!!! So anyway, now I have this big meeting in the chiefs office and I'm considering filing a lawsuit for the whole hiring thing they put me through and also b/c now it seems they are trying to get rid of me since I am in the process of starting up a union! So anyway, I've been feeling really paranoid about work like they are trying to fire me or get me to quit... so I guess I'll know tomorrow for sure or not. I spoke with a LT about it and he said not to worry about it that this was common with our current chief... so who knows maybe I am just being paranoid like the lady I dealt with yesterday on a call. Maybe that's why I'm so much more calm about this whole thing today- maybe that was  the reason I got sent that crazy lady- my message. She said her neighbor was part of the mob and was paying people to try and kill her by running her off the road and kick her out of her house. She was conviced this guy tried to kill her by hitting her car (he was at fault!) Anyway, I guess I just learn more and more everyday to be patient and see where things lead- there is no use in getting upset over spilt milk right? Maybe that's the lesson I'm supposed to learn in this life- but who really knows???

 Blessed Be,

Tori

PS- hope this blog makes a little sense to y'all-I'm a little scattered in my thoughts right now since I've got trouble at work and with the X and step daughter....